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POEMS
By the same author:
THE GARDEN PARTY
THE DOVES’ NEST
BLISS
POEMS
BY KATHERINE MANSFIELD
LONDON: CONSTABLE & CO. LTD.
First published 1923
PRINTED IN GREAT BRITAIN BY ROBERT MACLEHOSE AND CO. LTD.
THE UNIVERSITY PRESS, GLASGOW
TO ELIZABETH OF THE GERMAN GARDEN
WHO LOVED CERTAIN OF THESE POEMS
AND THEIR AUTHOR
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CONTENTS
| PAGE | |
| Introductory Note | xi |
| POEMS: 1909–1910 | |
| In the Rangitaki Valley | 3 |
| Spring Wind in London | 4 |
| Butterfly Laughter | 6 |
| The Candle | 7 |
| Little Brother’s Secret | 8 |
| Little Brother’s Story | 9 |
| The Man with the Wooden Leg | 10 |
| When I was a Bird | 11 |
| The Arabian Shawl | 12 |
| Sleeping Together | 13 |
| The Quarrel | 14 |
| POEMS: 1911–1913 | |
| Loneliness | 17 |
| The Meeting | 18 |
| The Gulf | 19 |
| The Storm | 20 |
| Across the Red Sky | 21 |
| Very Early Spring | 22 |
| The Awakening River | 23 |
| The Sea-Child | 24 |
| The Earth-Child in the Grass | 25 |
| To God the Father | 26 |
| The Opal Dream Cave | 27 |
| Sea | 28 |
| Jangling Memory | 29 |
| There was a Child once | 30viii |
| The Secret | 31 |
| Sea Song | 32 |
| Countrywomen | 34 |
| Stars | 35 |
| Deaf House Agent | 36 |
| POEMS AT THE VILLA PAULINE: 1916 | |
| Villa Pauline | 39 |
| Camomile Tea | 40 |
| Waves | 41 |
| The Town between the Hills | 43 |
| Voices of the Air | 45 |
| Sanary | 46 |
| To L. H. B. (1894–1915) | 47 |
| POEMS: 1917–1919 | |
| Night-Scented Stock | 51 |
| Now I am a Plant, a Weed.... | 53 |
| There is a Solemn Wind To-night | 54 |
| Out in the Garden | 55 |
| Fairy Tale | 56 |
| Covering Wings | 57 |
| Firelight | 59 |
| Sorrowing Love | 60 |
| A Little Girl’s Prayer | 61 |
| The Wounded Bird | 62 |
| CHILD VERSES: 1907 | |
| A Fairy Tale | 65 |
| Opposites | 67 |
| Song of Karen, the Dancing Child | 69ix |
| A Joyful Song of Five | 70 |
| The Candle Fairy | 71 |
| Song by the Window before Bed | 72 |
| A Little Boy’s Dream | 73 |
| Winter Song | 74 |
| On a Young Lady’s Sixth Anniversary | 75 |
| Song of the Little White Girl | 76 |
| A Few Rules for Beginners | 77 |
| A Day in Bed | 78 |
| The Lonesome Child | 79 |
| A Fine Day | 80 |
| Evening Song of the Thoughtful Child | 81 |
| A New Hymn | 83 |
| Autumn Song | 84 |
| The Black Monkey | 85 |
| The Pillar Box | 86 |
| The Quarrel | 87 |
| Grown-up Talk | 88 |
| The Family | 89 |
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INTRODUCTORY NOTE
In her Journal, on January 22, 1916, Katherine Mansfield told her plans as her writer to her dead brother. She wanted to pay “a sacred debt” to her country, New Zealand, because “my brother and I were born there.” “Then,” she continued, “I want to write poetry.”
“I feel always trembling on the brink of poetry,” she whispers to her brother. “The almond tree, the birds, the little wood where you are, the flowers you do not see, the open window out of which I lean and dream that you are against my shoulder, and the times that your photograph ‘looks sad.’ But especially I want to write a kind of long elegy to you ... perhaps not in poetry. No, perhaps in prose. Almost certainly in a kind of special prose.”
This “special prose” was the peculiar achievement of her genius. It seems to me that nothing like Prelude or At the Bay or The Voyage or The Doves’ Nest had ever been written in English before. English prose was turned to a new and magical use, made crystal-clear, and filled with rainbow-beauties that are utterly indefinable. What might, in another writer of genius, have become poetry, Katherine Mansfield put into her stories.
Nevertheless, she had written and, at long intervals, continued to write poetry. Perhaps her poetry is not quite poetry, just as her prose is not quite prose. Certainly, whatever they are, they belong to the same order; they have the same simple and mysterious beauty, and they are, above all, the expression of the same exquisite spirit. To my sense they are unique.
Comparatively few of these poems have been published; and of these few hardly one, except those which have appeared after her death in The Adelphi, over her own name. All those which were published in her lifetime, with two exceptions, appeared in papers which we edited together—in Rhythm, when we were young; in The Athenaeum, when we were older. The reason of this restriction was that she had tried in vain to get them published in other places. I remember her telling me when first we met that the beautiful pieces now gathered together as “Poems, 1911–1913” had been refused, because they were unrhymed, by the only editor who used to accept her work. He wanted her to write nothing but satirical prose. This treatment made her very reserved about her verses. Those she published in Rhythm appeared as translations from an imaginary Russian called Boris Petrovsky; those she published in The Athenaeum appeared over the pseudonym of Elizabeth Stanley. Her cousin, to whom this book is dedicated, was the only person to penetrate this latter disguise.
The poems have been roughly grouped in periods. Katherine Mansfield’s practice was suddenly to spend several days in writing poetry, and then to abandon poetry wholly for months and years together. “Poems at the Villa Pauline,” with the exception of the sonnet to L. H. B., were written in curious circumstances. Villa Pauline was a four-roomed cottage on the shore of the Mediterranean where we lived in 1916. For the whole of one week we made a practice of sitting together after supper at a very small table in the kitchen and writing verses on a single theme which we had chosen. It seems to me now almost miraculous that so exquisite a poem as, for instance, “Voices of the Air,” should have been thus composed.
The Child Verses at the end of the volume were written when Katherine Mansfield was still at Queen’s College. They were saved from destruction by one of her friends.
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POEMS 1909–1910
IN THE RANGITAKI VALLEY
O lovely, lovely light,
O heart of the world, red-gold!
Breast high in the blossom I stand;
It beats about me like waves
Of a magical, golden sea.
Alive at the kiss of the sun,
The yellow mantle of Summer
Flung over a laughing land,
Warm with the warmth of her body,
Sweet with the kiss of her breath.
O lovely, lovely light,
O mystical marriage of Earth
With the passionate Summer sun!
To her lover she holds a cup
And the yellow wine o’erflows.
He has lighted a little torch
And the whole of the world is ablaze.
Prodigal wealth of love!
Breast high in the blossom I stand.
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SPRING WIND IN LONDON
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I blow across the sea,
For me, the sailor’s flag unfurled,
For me, the uprooted tree.
My challenge to the world is hurled;
The world must bow to me.
I huddle them like sheep;
Merciless shepherd-dog am I
And shepherd-watch I keep.
If in the quiet vales they lie
I blow them up the steep.
In every living thing;
On the moon’s yellow wings I glide,
On the wild rose I swing;
On the sea-horse’s back I ride,
And what then do I bring?
I pause, and with my hand
I wave the window curtain’s frill
That he may understand
Outside the wind is blowing still.
... It is a pleasant land.
See what I bring to you.
This rain—is tears upon your face;
I tell you—tell you true
I came from that forgotten place
Where once the wattle grew.
Tangled against the wall.
It was that magic, silent hour....
The branches grew so tall
They twined themselves into a bower.
The sun shone ... and the fall
You feel that golden rain?
Both of you could not hold, alas,
(Both of you tried—in vain)
A memory, stranger. So I pass....
It will not come again.
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BUTTERFLY LAUGHTER
There was a blue butterfly painted
And each morning we tried who should reach the butterfly first.
Then the Grandmother said: “Do not eat the poor butterfly.”
That made us laugh.
Always she said it and always it started us laughing.
It seemed such a sweet little joke.
I was certain that one fine morning
The butterfly would fly out of the plates,
Laughing the teeniest laugh in the world,
And perch on the Grandmother’s lap.
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THE CANDLE
The Grandmother placed a candle.
She gave me three kisses telling me they were three dreams
And tucked me in just where I loved being tucked.
Then she went out of the room and the door was shut.
I lay still, waiting for my three dreams to talk;
But they were silent.
Suddenly I remembered giving her three kisses back.
Perhaps, by mistake, I had given my three little dreams.
I sat up in bed.
The room grew big, oh, bigger far than a church.
The wardrobe, quite by itself, as big as a house.
And the jug on the washstand smiled at me:
It was not a friendly smile.
I looked at the basket-chair where my clothes lay folded:
The chair gave a creak as though it were listening for something.
Perhaps it was coming alive and going to dress in my clothes.
But the awful thing was the window:
I could not think what was outside.
No tree to be seen, I was sure,
No nice little plant or friendly pebbly path.
Why did she pull the blind down every night?
It was better to know.
I crunched my teeth and crept out of bed,
I peeped through a slit of the blind.
There was nothing at all to be seen.
But hundreds of friendly candles all over the sky
In remembrance of frightened children.
I went back to bed ...
The three dreams started singing a little song.
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LITTLE BROTHER’S SECRET
Little Brother had a secret:
He kept it for days and days
And just hummed a little tune when I asked him.
But one night it rained
And I woke up and heard him crying:
Then he told me.
“I planted two lumps of sugar in your garden
Because you love it so frightfully
I thought there would be a whole sugar tree for your birthday,
And now it will all be melted.”
O the darling!
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LITTLE BROTHER’S STORY
Grandmother was in the rocking chair doing her knitting
And Little Brother and I were lying down flat.
“Please tell us a story, Grandmother,” we said.
But she put her head on one side and began counting the stitches,
“Suppose you tell me one instead.”
I made up one about a spotted tiger
That had a knot in his tail;
But though I liked this about the knot,
I did not know why it was put there.
So I said: “Little Brother’s turn.”
“I know a perfect story,” he cried, waving his hands.
Grandmother laid down her knitting.
“Do tell us, dear.”
“Once upon a time there was a bad little girl
And her Mummy gave her the slipper, and that’s all.”
It was not a very special story.
But we pretended to be very pleased
And Grandmother gave him jumps on her lap.
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THE MAN WITH THE WOODEN LEG
He had a wooden leg and a goldfinch in a green cage.
His name was Farkey Anderson,
And he’d been in a war to get his leg.
We were very sad about him,
Because he had such a beautiful smile
And was such a big man to live in a very small house.
When he walked on the road his leg did not matter so much;
But when he walked in his little house
It made an ugly noise.
Little Brother said his goldfinch sang the loudest of all birds,
So that he should not hear his poor leg
And feel too sorry about it.
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WHEN I WAS A BIRD
Into a nest all made of leaves
But soft as feathers.
I made up a song that went on singing all by itself
And hadn’t any words, but got sad at the end.
There were daisies in the grass under the tree.
I said just to try them:
“I’ll bite off your heads and give them to my little children to eat.”
But they didn’t believe I was a bird;
They stayed quite open.
The sky was like a blue nest with white feathers
And the sun was the mother bird keeping it warm.
That’s what my song said: though it hadn’t any words.
Little Brother came up the patch, wheeling his barrow.
I made my dress into wings and kept very quiet.
Then when he was quite near I said: “Sweet, sweet!”
For a moment he looked quite startled;
Then he said: “Pooh, you’re not a bird; I can see your legs.”
But the daisies didn’t really matter,
And Little Brother didn’t really matter;
I felt just like a bird.
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THE ARABIAN SHAWL
What! this old Arabian shawl!
Bind it about your head and throat,
These steps ... it is dark ... my hand ... you might fall.”
Lingers about the Arabian shawl ...
Do not tremble so! There can be no harm
In just remembering—that is all.
Here, in the dark of the Terrace wall,
Say it again. Let that other life
Fold us like the Arabian shawl.
Some childish foolishness, that is all,
To-night is the first time we have met ...
Let me take off my Arabian shawl!”
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SLEEPING TOGETHER
How warm our room ... how the firelight spread
On walls and ceiling and great white bed!
We spoke in whispers as children do,
And now it was I—and then it was you
Slept a moment, to wake—“My dear,
I’m not at all sleepy,” one of us said...
I woke in your arms—you were sound asleep—
And heard the pattering sound of sheep.
Softly I slipped to the floor and crept
To the curtained window, then, while you slept,
I watched the sheep pass by in the snow.
Shivering, desolate, out in the cold,
That entered into my heart to fold!
A thousand years ... was it yesterday
When we, two children of far away,
Clinging close in the darkness, lay
Sleeping together?... How tired you were...
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THE QUARREL
It made the room feel mean and small,
The books, the lamp, the furniture,
The very pictures on the wall—
Pale and terrified, face to face.
“Why do you stay?” she said, “my room
Can never be your resting place.”
I pray you walk once more with me.”
So down the dark, familiar road
We paced together, silently.
I said:—“Katinka dear, look up!”
Like thirsty children, both of us
Drank from that giant loving cup.
“What were their stupid, vague alarms?”
And suddenly we turned and laughed
And rushed into each other’s arms.
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POEMS 1911–1913
LONELINESS
Instead of Sleep, to sit beside my bed.
Like a tired child I lie and wait her tread,
I watch her softly blowing out the light.
Motionless sitting, neither left nor right
She turns, and weary, weary droops her head.
She, too, is old; she, too, has fought the fight.
So, with the laurel she is garlanded.
Breaks on a barren shore, unsatisfied.
A strange wind flows ... then silence. I am fain
To turn to Loneliness, to take her hand,
Cling to her, waiting, till the barren land
Fills with the dreadful monotone of rain.
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THE MEETING
Looked at each other, then turned away.
The tears kept rising to my eyes
But I could not weep.
I wanted to take your hand
But my hand trembled.
You kept counting the days
Before we should meet again.
But both of us felt in our hearts
That we parted for ever and ever.
The ticking of the little clock filled the quiet room.
“Listen,” I said. “It is so loud,
Like a horse galloping on a lonely road,
As loud as that—a horse galloping past in the night.”
You shut me up in your arms.
But the sound of the clock stifled our hearts’ beating.
You said, “I cannot go: all that is living of me
Is here for ever and ever.”
Then you went.
The world changed. The sound of the clock grew fainter,
Dwindled away, became a minute thing.
I whispered in the darkness, “If it stops, I shall die.”
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THE GULF
I stand at one side of the gulf, you at the other.
I cannot see you or hear you, yet know that you are there.
Often I call you by your childish name
And pretend that the echo to my crying is your voice.
How can we bridge the gulf? Never by speech or touch.
Once I thought we might fill it quite up with tears.
Now I want to shatter it with our laughter.
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THE STORM
Breathless, half sobbing;
I put my arms round a tree,
Pillowed my head against the rough bark.
“Protect me,” I said. “I am a lost child.”
But the tree showered silver drops on my face and hair.
A wind sprang up from the ends of the earth;
It lashed the forest together.
A huge green wave thundered and burst over my head.
I prayed, implored, “Please take care of me!”
But the wind pulled at my cloak and the rain beat upon me.
Little rivers tore up the ground and swamped the bushes.
A frenzy possessed the earth: I felt that the earth was drowning
In a bubbling cavern of space. I alone—
Smaller than the smallest fly—was alive and terrified.
Then, for what reason I know not, I became triumphant.
“Well, kill me!” I cried and ran out into the open.
But the storm ceased: the sun spread his wings
And floated serene in the silver pool of the sky.
I put my hands over my face: I was blushing.
And the trees swung together and delicately laughed.
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ACROSS THE RED SKY
Flying with drooping wings.
Silent and solitary their ominous flight.
All day the triumphant sun with yellow banners
Warred and warred with the earth, and when she yielded
Stabbed her heart, gathered her blood in a chalice,
Spilling it over the evening sky.
When the dark plumaged birds go flying, flying,
Quiet lies the earth wrapt in her mournful shadow,
Her sightless eyes turned to the red sky
And the restlessly seeking birds.
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VERY EARLY SPRING
There are little blue lakes and flags of tenderest green.
The snow has been caught up into the sky—
So many white clouds—and the blue of the sky is cold.
Now the sun walks in the forest,
He touches the boughs and stems with his golden fingers;
They shiver, and wake from slumber.
Over the barren branches he shakes his yellow curls.
... Yet is the forest full of the sound of tears....
A wind dances over the fields.
Shrill and clear the sound of her waking laughter,
Yet the little blue lakes tremble
And the flags of tenderest green bend and quiver.
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THE AWAKENING RIVER
And the river unveils her face and smiles.
In her sleep-brooding eyes they mirror their shining wings.
She lies on silver pillows: the sun leans over her.
He warms and warms her, he kisses and kisses her.
There are sparks in her hair and she stirs in laughter.
Be careful, my beautiful waking one! you will catch on fire.
Wheeling and flying with the foam of the sea on their breasts,
The ineffable mists of the sea clinging to their wild wings,
Crying the rapture of the boundless ocean,
The gulls are mad-in-love with the river.
Wake! we are the dream thoughts flying from your heart.
Wake! we are the songs of desire flowing from your bosom.
O, I think the sun will lend her his great wings
And the river will fly away to the sea with the mad-in-love birds.
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THE SEA CHILD
Fashioned her body of coral and foam,
Combed a wave in her hair’s warm smother,
And drove her away from home.
And under a doorway she laid her down,
The little blue child in the foam-fringed gown.
To hear her call, to answer her cry.
Her face shone out from her hair’s warm smother
Like a moonkin up in the sky.
Her rainbow heart like a singing shell
Broke in her body: she crept back home.
Daughter, go back to the darkling land;
There is nothing here but sad sea water,
And a handful of sifting sand.
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THE EARTH-CHILD IN THE GRASS
Long before Dawn time
I lay down in the paddock
And listened to the cold song of the grass.
Between my fingers the green blades,
And the green blades pressed against my body.
“Who is she leaning so heavily upon me?”
Sang the grass.
“Why does she weep on my bosom,
Mingling her tears with the tears of my mystic lover?
Foolish little earth child!
It is not yet time.
One day I shall open my bosom
And you shall slip in—but not weeping.
Then in the early morning
Long before Dawn time
Your lover will lie in the paddock.
Between his fingers the green blades
And the green blades pressed against his body ...
My song shall not sound cold to him
In my deep wave he will find the wave of your hair
In my strong sweet perfume, the perfume of your kisses.
Long and long he will lie there ...
Laughing—not weeping.”
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TO GOD THE FATHER
The God with the long grey beard
And flowing robe fastened with a hempen girdle
Who sits nodding and muttering on the all-too-big throne of Heaven.
What a long, long time, dear God, since you set the stars in their places,
Girded the earth with the sea, and invented the day and night.
And longer the time since you looked through the blue window of Heaven
To see your children at play in a garden....
Now we are all stronger than you and wiser and more arrogant,
In swift procession we pass you by.
“Who is that marionette nodding and muttering
On the all-too-big throne of Heaven?
Come down from your place, Grey Beard,
We have had enough of your play-acting!”
It is centuries since I believed in you,
But to-day my need of you has come back.
I want no rose-coloured future,
No books of learning, no protestations and denials—
I am sick of this ugly scramble,
I am tired of being pulled about—
O God, I want to sit on your knees
On the all-too-big throne of Heaven,
And fall asleep with my hands tangled in your grey beard.
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THE OPAL DREAM CAVE
Her wings were frailer than flower petals,
Frailer far than snowflakes.
She was not frightened, but poised on my finger,
Then delicately walked into my hand.
I shut the two palms of my hands together
And held her prisoner.
I carried her out of the opal cave,
Then opened my hands.
First she became thistledown,
Then a mote in a sunbeam,
Then—nothing at all.
Empty now is my opal dream cave.
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SEA
“I am come.”
She mocked and showed her teeth,
Stretching out her long green arms.
“Go away!” she thundered.
“Then tell me what I am to do,” I begged.
“If I leave you, you will not be silent,
But cry my name in the cities
And wistfully entreat me in the plains and forests;
All else I forsake to come to you—what must I do?”
“Never have I uttered your name,” snarled the Sea.
“There is no more of me in your body
Than the little salt tears you are frightened of shedding.
What can you know of my love on your brown rock pillow....
Come closer.”
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JANGLING MEMORY
Sea-green dragons stamped on a golden ground.
Ha! Ha! Ha! What children we were in those days.
Have you the courage of your pristine glories?
Ha! Ha! Ha! You laugh and shrug your shoulders.
We wore it in turn—I flaunted it as a waist-belt.
Ha! Ha! Ha! What easily satisfied babies.
“Give it to me, I’ll polish my slippers on it!”
Ha! Ha! Ha! The rag’s not worth the dustbin.
Fling it into the faces of other children!”
Ha! Ha! Ha! We laughed and laughed till the tears came!
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THERE WAS A CHILD ONCE
He came to play in my garden;
He was quite pale and silent.
Only when he smiled I knew everything about him,
I knew what he had in his pockets,
And I knew the feel of his hands in my hands
And the most intimate tones of his voice.
I led him down each secret path,
Showing him the hiding-place of all my treasures.
I let him play with them, every one,
I put my singing thoughts in a little silver cage
And gave them to him to keep ...
It was very dark in the garden
But never dark enough for us. On tiptoe we walked among the deepest shades;
We bathed in the shadow pools beneath the trees,
Pretending we were under the sea.
Once—near the boundary of the garden—
We heard steps passing along the World-road;
O how frightened we were!
I whispered: “Have you ever walked along that road?”
He nodded, and we shook the tears from our eyes....
There was a child once.
He came—quite alone—to play in my garden;
He was pale and silent.
When we met we kissed each other,
But when he went away, we did not even wave.
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THE SECRET
There is a rainbow shell,
It is always there, shining most stilly
Under the greatest storm waves
And under the happy little waves
That the old Greek called ‘ripples of laughter.’
And you listen, the rainbow shell
Sings—in the profoundest ocean.
It is always there, singing most silently!
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SEA SONG
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Of the big green waves
And the hollowed shore,
Of the brown rock caves
No more, no more
Of the swell and the weed
And the bubbling foam.
She has nothing to do with me.
With a pack
On her back.
Her tears all spent,
Her voice, just a crack.
With an old thorn stick
She hobbles along,
And a crazy song
Now slow, now quick
Wheeks in her throat.
While there’s light on the shore
She searches for something,
Her withered claw
Tumbles the seaweed;
She pokes in each shell
Groping and mumbling
Until the night
Deepens and darkens,
And covers her quite,
And bids her be silent,
And bids her be still.
Of the whispery waves
Tiptoe beside her.
They follow, follow
To the rocky caves
In the white beach hollow ...
She hugs her hands,
She sobs, she shrills,
And the echoes shriek
In the rocky hills.
She moans: “It is lost!
Let it be! Let it be!
I am old. I’m too cold.
I am frightened ... the sea
Is too loud ... it is lost,
It is gone...” Memory
Wails in my far away home.
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COUNTRYWOMEN
Country women.
What a size!
Grand big arms
And round red faces;
Big substantial
Sit down places;
Great big bosoms firm as cheese
Bursting through their country jackets;
Wide big laps
And sturdy knees;
Hands outspread,
Round and rosy,
Hands to hold
A country posy
Or a baby or a lamb—
And such eyes!
Stupid, shifty, small and sly
Peeping through a slit of sty,
Squinting through their neighbours’ plackets.
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STARS
Look kindly upon
An impudent child
Who wants sitting on.
This evening late
I went to the door
And then to the gate
There were more stars—more
Than I could have expected,
Even I!
I was simply amazed
Almighty, August!
I was utterly dazed,
Omnipotent! Just
In a word I was floored,
Good God of Hosts—Lord!
That at this time of day
They should still blaze away,
That thou hadst not rejected
Or at least circumspected
Their white silver beauty—
Was it spite ... Was it duty..?
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DEAF HOUSE AGENT
With his hand to his ear—
His hand to his head stood out like a shell,
Horny and hollow. He said, “I can’t hear,”
He muttered, “Don’t shout,
I can hear very well!”
He mumbled, “I can’t catch a word;
I can’t follow.”
Then Jack with a voice like a Protestant bell
Roared—“Particulars! Farmhouse! At 10 quid a year!”
“I dunno wot place you are talking about,”
Said the deaf old man.
Said Jack, “What the Hell!”
But the deaf old man took a pin from his desk, picked a piece of wool the size of a hen’s egg from his ear, had a good look at it, decided in its favour and replaced it in the aforementioned organ.
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POEMS AT THE VILLA PAULINE 1916
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VILLA PAULINE
You were only a name:
Four little rooms and a cupboard
Without a bone,
And I was alone!
Now with your windows wide
Everything from outside
Of sun and flower and loveliness
Comes in to hide,
To play, to laugh on the stairs,
To catch unawares
Our childish happiness,
And to glide
Through the four little rooms on tip-toe
With lifted finger,
Pretending we shall not know
When the shutters are shut
That they still linger
Long, long after.
Lying close in the dark
He says to me: “Hark,
Isn’t that laughter?”
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CAMOMILE TEA
There’s a hollow roaring from the sea.
And, alas! for the little almond flowers,
The wind is shaking the almond tree.
In that horrible cottage upon the Lee
That he and I should be sitting so
And sipping a cup of camomile tea.
The horn of the moon is plain to see;
By a firefly under a jonquil flower
A goblin toasts a bumble-bee.
So snug, so compact, so wise are we!
Under the kitchen-table leg
My knee is pressing against his knee.
The tap is dripping peacefully;
The saucepan shadows on the wall
Are black and round and plain to see.
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WAVES
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Sitting
Under a bright blue Umbrella
That had white tassels
And forkèd ribs of gold.
Below him His little world
Lay open to the sun.
The shadow of His hat
Lay upon a city.
When he stretched forth His hand
A lake became a dark tremble.
When he kicked up His foot
It became night in the mountain passes.
There are gods far greater than thou;
They rise and fall,
The tumbling gods of the sea.
Can thy heart heave such sighs,
Such hollow savage cries,
Such windy breath,
Such groaning death?
And can thy arm enfold
The old,
The cold,
The changeless dreadful places
Where the herds
Of horned sea-monsters
And the screaming birds
Gather together?
From those silent men
That lie in the pen
Of our pearly prisons,
Canst thou hunt thy prey?
Like us canst thou stay
Awaiting thine hour,
And then rise like a tower
And crash and shatter?
In my country,
Said the tiny God.
But there are streams
And waterfalls
And mountain-peaks
Covered with lovely weed.
There are little shores and safe harbours,
Caves for cool and plains for sun and wind.
Lovely is the sound of the rivers,
Lovely the flashing brightness
Of the lovely peaks.
I am content.
Said the God of the Sea.
Thy kingdom shall fall;
I shall not let thee be.
Thou art proud!
With a loud
Pealing of laughter,
He rose and covered
The tiny God’s land
With the tip of his hand,
With the curl of his fingers:
And after—
Began to cry.
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THE TOWN BETWEEN THE HILLS
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The further she longed to be;
The white, white fields of jonquil flowers
Danced up as high as her knee
And flashed and sparkled before her eyes
Until she could hardly see.
So into the wood went she.
It was solemn and grave;
A sound like a wave
Sighed in the tree-tops
And then sighed no more.
But she was brave,
And the sky showed through
A bird’s-egg blue,
And she saw
A tiny path that was running away
Over the hills to—who can say?
She ran, too.
But then the path broke,
Then the path ended
And wouldn’t be mended.
Sat on the edge,
Hugging the hedge.
He had a fire
And two eggs in a pan
And a paper poke
Of pepper and salt;
So she came to a halt
To watch and admire:
Cunning and nimble was he!
“May I help, if I can, little old man?”
“Bravo!” he said,
“You may dine with me.
I’ve two old eggs
From two white hens
And a loaf from a kind ladie:
Some fresh nutmegs,
Some cutlet ends
In pink and white paper frills:
And—I’ve—got
A little hot-pot
From the town between the hills.”
And made her a sign
To sit under the spray
Of a trailing vine.
And said the grace she had learned to say,
The little old man gave two dreadful squeals
And she just saw the flash of his smoking heels
As he tumbled, tumbled
With his two old eggs
From two white hens,
His loaf from a kind ladie,
The fresh nutmegs,
The cutlet-ends
In the pink and white paper frills.
And away rumbled
The little hot-pot,
So much too hot,
From the town between the hills.
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VOICES OF THE AIR
When, for no cause that I can find,
The little voices of the air
Sound above all the sea and wind.
And sighing, sighing double notes
Of double basses, content to play
A droning chord for the little throats—
Up into the light with lovely ease
And a kind of magical, sweet surprise
To hear and know themselves for these—
The leaf that taps, the pod that breaks,
The breeze on the grass-tops bending by,
The shrill quick sound that the insect makes.
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SANARY
Through a stiff palisade of glinting palms,
And there she would lie in the heat of the day,
Her dark head resting upon her arms,
So quiet, so still, she did not seem
To think, to feel, or even to dream.
Hung from the sky, and the spider sun
With busy frightening cruelty
Crawled over the sky and spun and spun.
She could see it still when she shut her eyes,
And the little boats caught in the web like flies.
Nobody walked in the dusty street
A scent of dying mimosa flower
Lay on the air, but sweet—too sweet.
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TO L. H. B. (1894–1915)
I walked with you, my brother, in a dream.
We were at home again beside the stream
Fringed with tall berry bushes, white and red.
“Don’t touch them: they are poisonous,” I said.
But your hand hovered, and I saw a beam
Of strange, bright laughter flying round your head
And as you stooped I saw the berries gleam.
“Don’t you remember? We called them Dead Man’s Bread!”
I woke and heard the wind moan and the roar
Of the dark water tumbling on the shore.
Where—where is the path of my dream for my eager feet?
By the remembered stream my brother stands
Waiting for me with berries in his hands ...
“These are my body. Sister, take and eat.”
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POEMS 1917–1919
NIGHT-SCENTED STOCK
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The moon danced over a tree.
“Wouldn’t it be lovely to swim in the lake!”
Someone whispered to me.
And clasped her hands to her chin.
“I should so love to see the white bodies—
All the white bodies jump in!”
Behind the magnolia and the spreading pear-tree,
But there was a sound of music—music rippled and ran
Like a lady laughing behind her fan,
Laughing and mocking and running away ...
“Come into the garden—it’s as light as day!”
The rhythm in it is not passionate enough,”
Said somebody. “I absolutely refuse...”
But he took off his socks and his shoes
And round her spun. “It’s like Hungarian fruit dishes
Hard and bright—a mechanical blue!”
His white feet flicked in the grass like fishes ...
Someone cried: “I want to dance, too!”
Curled up on a blue wooden bench instead.
And another, shadowy—shadowy and tall—
Walked in the shadow of the dark house wall,
Someone beside her. It shone in the gloom,
His round grey hat, like a wet mushroom.
“How sweet the flowers smell!” I heard the other say—
Somebody picked a wet, wet pink
Smelled it and threw it away.
“Is the moon a virgin or is she a harlot?”
Asked somebody. Nobody would tell.
The faces and the hands moved in a pattern
As the music rose and fell,
In a dancing, mysterious, moon-bright pattern
Like flowers nodding under the sea ...
But the moon dancing over the tree.
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NOW I AM A PLANT, A WEED ...
Bending and swinging
On a rocky ledge;
And now I am a long brown grass
Fluttering like flame;
I am a reed;
An old shell singing
For ever the same;
A drift of sedge;
A white, white stone;
A bone;
Until I pass
Into sand again,
And spin and blow
To and fro, to and fro,
On the edge of the sea
In the fading light—
For the light fades.
“She is not waiting here for me;
She has forgotten.” Have we not in play
Disguised ourselves as weed and stones and grass
While the strange ships did pass
Gently, gravely, leaving a curl of foam
That uncurled softly about our island home ...
Bubbles of foam that glittered on the stone
Like rainbows? Look, darling! No, they are gone.
And the white sails have melted into the sailing sky ...
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THERE IS A SOLEMN WIND TO-NIGHT
That sings of solemn rain;
The trees that have been quiet so long
Flutter and start again.
The fruit trees laden and proud,
Lift up their branches to the wind
That cries to them so loud.
Bow to the solemn sound,
And every tiniest blade of grass
Shakes on the quiet ground.
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OUT IN THE GARDEN
Out in the windy, swinging dark,
Under the trees and over the flower-beds,
Over the grass and under the hedge border,
Someone is sweeping, sweeping,
Some old gardener.
Out in the windy, swinging dark,
Someone is secretly putting in order,
Someone is creeping, creeping.
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FAIRY TALE
And every bloom becomes a bud again,
Shut and sealed up against the golden showers
Of bees that hover in the velvet hours....
Now a strain
Wild and mournful blown from shadow towers,
Echoed from shadow ships upon the foam,
Proclaims the Queen of Night.
From their bowers
The dark Princesses fluttering, wing their flight
To their old Mother, in her huge old home.
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COVERING WINGS
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Your beautiful, watchful ways
Grasp me, fold me, cover me;
I lie in a kind of daze,
Neither asleep nor yet awake,
Neither a bud nor flower.
Brings to-morrow
Joy or sorrow,
The black or the golden hour?
Chide me, scold me—cry,
“Submit—submit! You must not fight!”
What may I do, then? Die?
But, oh, my horror of quiet beds!
How can I longer stay!
“One to be ready,
Two to be steady,
Three to be off and away!”
Your sorrowful, mournful gaze—
“Two bleached roads lie under the moon,
At the parting of the ways.”
But the tiny, tree-thatched, narrow lane,
Isn’t it yours and mine?
The blue-bells ring
Hey, ding-a-ding, ding!
And buds are thick on the vine.
As a tree droops over a stream
You hush me, lull me, darken me,
The shadow hiding the gleam.
Your drooping and tragical boughs of grace
Are heavy as though with rain.
Run! Run!
Into the sun!
Let us be children again.
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FIRELIGHT
My little son and I,
Suddenly—woefully—I stoop to catch him.
“Try, mother, try!”
“Hush! cease your play!”
What happened? What in that tiny moment
Flew away?
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SORROWING LOVE
And the light shakes,
And no tiny voice is dumb,
And a bud breaks
On the humble bush and the proud restless tree.
Come with me!
And this one white.
Here’s a pearl cup for your drink,
Here’s for your delight
A yellow one, sweet with honey,
Here’s fairy money
Silver bright
Scattered over the grass
As we pass.
On my cold fingers!
You shall have no moss. Here’s a frail
Hyacinth, deathly pale.
Not for you, not for you!
And the place where they grew
You must promise me not to discover,
My sorrowful lover!
Shall we never be happy again?
Never again play?
In vain—in vain!
Come away!
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A LITTLE GIRL’S PRAYER
That I may lean forth to see
The other buds, the other blooms,
The other leaves on the tree:
The breeze that is like his brother,
But stiller, lighter, whose faint laughter
Echoes the joy of the other.
There are small clouds at play.
I watch their remote, mysterious play-time
In the other far-away.
The song that the silence knows ...
(The Light and the Shadow whisper together,
The lovely moment grows,
Away and away without sound,
And the little girl gets up from her praying
On the cold ground.)
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THE WOUNDED BIRD
Under the green embroidered quilt
With flowers and leaves always in soft motion
She is like a wounded bird resting on a pool.
And hit her breast,—
Hit her but did not kill.
“O my wings, lift me—lift me!
I am not dreadfully hurt!”
Down she dropped and was still.
“Of course what the poor bird wants is plenty of food!”
Their bags and pockets are crammed almost to bursting
With dinner scrapings and scraps from the servants’ lunch.
Oh! how pleased they are to be really giving!
“In the past, you know you know, you were always so fly-away.
So seldom came to the window-sill, so rarely
Shared the delicious crumbs thrown into the yard.
Here is a delicate fragment and here a tit-bit
As good as new. And here’s a morsel of relish
And cake and bread and bread and bread and bread.”
With the leaves and flowers
Gently weaving in the darkness,
She is like a wounded bird at rest on a pool.
Timidly, timidly she lifts her head from her wing
In the sky there are two stars
Floating, shining ...
O waters—do not cover me!
I would look long and long at those beautiful stars!
O my wings—lift me—lift me!
I am not so dreadfully hurt ...
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CHILD VERSES 1907
A FAIRY TALE
Who ages and ages ago
Lived right on the top of a mountain,
A mountain all covered with snow.
With beautiful curling fair hair
And small hands like delicate flowers—
Cheeks kissed by the cold mountain air.
Just one little room and a door
A table, a chair, and a bedstead
And animal skins on the floor.
And so never wanted to eat
He thought dewdrops and raindrops were plenty
And snowflakes and all perfumes sweet.
And cleaning were quite at an end,
He would sit very still on the doorstep
And dream—Oh, that he had a friend!
Somebody to catch by the hand,
Somebody to sleep with at night time,
Somebody who’d quite understand.
He lay wide awake on his bed,
Outside there was fury of tempest
And calling of wolves to be fed—
And Olaf was frightened to death.
He had peeped through a crack in the doorpost,
He had seen the white smoke of their breath.
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He heard a small voice pleadingly
Cry, “I am a snow fairy, Olaf,
Unfasten the window for me.”
The daintiest, prettiest sprite;
Her face and her dress and her stockings,
Her hands and her curls were all white.
Before I am melted, you know,
I have brought you a valuable present,
A little brown fiddle and bow.
With a fiddle, you see, for a friend,
But all through the Summer and Winter
Play beautiful songs without end.”
But Olaf was happy at last;
The fiddle he tucked in his shoulder,
He held his small bow very fast.
If you listen, you may hear him soon,
The child who is playing the fiddle
Away up in the cold, lonely moon.
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OPPOSITES
Walked out into the street
And splashed in all the puddles till
She had such shocking feet.
Stayed quietly in the house
And sat upon the fender stool
As still as any mouse.
Her hands were black as ink;
She would come running through the house
And begging for a drink.
Her hands were white as snow;
She did not like to play around,
She only liked to sew.
Lost hair ribbons galore;
She dropped them on the garden walks,
She dropped them on the floor.
O thoughtful little girl!
She liked to walk quite soberly,
It kept her hair in curl.
When she was glad or proud
Just flung her arms round Mother’s neck
And kissed her very loud.
Was shocked at such a sight,
She only offered you her cheek
At morning and at night.
68 Your happy laughing face
Does like a scented Summer rose
Make sweet the dullest place.
My dear, I’m well content,
To have my daughter in my arms,
And not an ornament.
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SONG OF KAREN, THE DANCING CHILD
Out in the storm and the rain you fly;
(Red, red shoes the colour of wine)
Can the children hear my cry?
Never a child in the whole great town;
(Red, red shoes the colour of wine)
Lights out and the blinds pulled down.
Never a light on a window pane,
(Red, red shoes the colour of wine)
And the wild wet cry of the rain.
Shall I never again be still?
(Red, red shoes the colour of wine)
And away over valley and hill.
Children, children, open the door!
(Red, red shoes the colour of wine)
And the wind shrieks Nevermore.
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A JOYFUL SONG OF FIVE
And all sing very loud
And keep on singing in the street
Until there’s quite a crowd;
And up and down the stairs;
Then underneath the furniture
Let’s all play Polar bears;
And growl and howl and squeak,
Then in the garden let us fly
And play at hide and seek;
“I wrote a Letter” too,
“Here we go round the Mulberry Bush,”
“The Child who lost its shoe”;
And then—to stay alive—
Let’s end with lots of Birthday Cake
Because to-day you’re five.
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THE CANDLE FAIRY
That’s smooth and round and white,
And Mother carries it about
Whenever it is night.
A lovely yellow one,
And if you blow a little bit
It has all sorts of fun.
In such a clever way,
And then it stretches very tall;
“Well, it grows fast,” you say.
Is black and really sweet,
And there the candle fairy stands
Though you can’t see its feet.
And you’ve been having dreams,
Then Mother brings the candle in;
How friendly like it seems!
The candle Fairy comes;
And if you play with it, it bites
Your fingers and your thumbs.
This candle Fairy, dear,
Because, at night, it always means
That Mother’s very near.
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SONG BY THE WINDOW BEFORE BED
Come down quick.
The Moon is a bogey-man;
He’ll eat you certain if he can.
Little Star, little Star,
Come down quick!
Whisper “Yes.”
The trees are just niggers all,
They look so black, they are so tall.
Little Star, little Star,
Whisper “Yes.”
Gone—all gone.
The bogey-man swallowed you,
The nigger trees are laughing too.
Little Star, little Star,
Gone—all gone.
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A LITTLE BOY’S DREAM
In my little boat I go
Sailing far across the sea
All alone, just little me.
And the sea is big and strong
And the journey very long.
To and fro, to and fro
In my little boat I go.
Quietly on the deck I lie,
Having just a little rest.
I have really done my best
In an awful pirate fight,
But we captured them all right.
Sea and sky, sea and sky,
Quietly on the deck I lie
From my home and from my play,
On a journey without end
Only with the sea for friend
And the fishes in the sea.
But they swim away from me
Far away, far away
From my home and from my play.
And he woke and sat upright,
They were in the rocking chair,
Mother’s arms around him—tight.
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WINTER SONG
Will the Summer come again?
Rain on houses, on the street,
Wetting all the people’s feet.
Though they run with might and main.
Rain and wind, and wind and rain.
Will the Winter never go?
What do beggar children do
With no fire to cuddle to,
P’raps with nowhere warm to go?
Snow and sleet, and sleet and snow.
Water frozen in the pail.
See the robins, brown and red,
They are waiting to be fed.
Poor dears; battling in the gale!
Hail and ice, and ice and hail.
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ON A YOUNG LADY’S SIXTH ANNIVERSARY
Now to sit up has begun.
Walks as well as I and you.
Has a teaspoon at her tea.
Learns to open the front door.
Can her shoestring neatly fix.
You will soon put up your hair!
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SONG OF THE LITTLE WHITE GIRL
Why are you shaking so? Why do you chatter?
Because it is just a white baby you see,
And it’s the black ones you like, cabbage tree?
With your green hair and your legs browny-yellow.
Wouldn’t you like to have curls, dear, like me?
What! No one to make them? O poor cabbage tree!
And if you grow, please, a little bit smaller,
I shall be able by that time, may be,
To make you the loveliest curls, cabbage tree.
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A FEW RULES FOR BEGINNERS
And they must not make grimaces,
Nor in party dresses roll
And must never black their faces.
They must sit quite still at table,
And must always eat the food
Put before them—if they’re able.
Though it’s known how painful this is;
No—there’s always Mother by
Who will comfort them with kisses.
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A DAY IN BED
The wind is big and wild,
I wish that I was very old,
Not just a little child.
Just keeping here, alone;
I do not like the big wind’s song,
He’s growling for a bone.
Who used to creep around
And snatch at things—he was so bad,
With just that horrid sound.
Me wear a woolly shawl;
I wish I was not so afraid;
It’s horrid to be small.
Since I have had my tea;
P’raps everybody’s gone away
And just forgotten me.
Although I am in bed.
The wind keeps going creepy-creep
And waiting to be fed.
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THE LONESOME CHILD
Is smiling through at me;
She has her teaspoon in her hand,
Her feeder on for tea.
Can see the table spread;
I wonder if she has to eat
The nasty crusts of bread.
Beside her special chair,
She has a pussy on her lap;
It must be my cup there.
The cover’s just the same;
And tidily upon the shelf
I see my Ninepin game.
Come through and play with me,
And if you will, I promise, dear,
To eat your crusts at tea.
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A FINE DAY
Shines on hill and grassy mead;
Fly into the garden, child,
You are very glad indeed.
Oh, so special dark and drear,
That you told me, “Mr. Sun
Has forgotten we live here.”
Dew upon the garden beds;
Daintily from all the leaves
Pop the little primrose heads.
With their parasols of green
Take a little peek at you;
They’re the bluest you have seen.
Singing first a little note,
Then a burst of happy song
Bubbles in his lifted throat.
This the song that you must sing,
“Thank you for the birds, the flowers,
Thank you, sun, for everything.”
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EVENING SONG OF THE THOUGHTFUL CHILD
Now the day is left behind,
You are dancing on the wall,
On the curtains, on the blind.
Peeping round the nursery door,
Let me come and play with you,
As we always played before.
And can really truly fly
Over every sort of things
Up and up into the sky,
It does seem a dreadful rule,
They must stay inside all day.
I suppose they go to school.
They are having such a race
With their father moon—the tree
Almost hides his funny face.
I was all tucked up in bed,
Father moon came—such a fright—
Through the window poked his head;
O, my dears, I was afraid,
That was not a nice surprise,
And the dreadful noise I made!
82 Shadow children, hand in hand,
And our songs quite softly sing
That we learned in fairyland.
See, the day is far behind;
And I kiss you—on the wall
On the curtains—on the blind.
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A NEW HYMN
Half-past-six has got a pair,
And he’s wearing them this evening,
And he’s looking such a dear.
I have got one, it is so’s
I can use my ’nitial hankies
Every time I blow my nose.
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AUTUMN SONG
All become as red as roses
And the colour of their faces
Makes me think of orchard places
Where the juicy apples grow
And tomatoes in a row.
Never could be late for dinner,
But will jump up to the table
Just as soon as he is able,
Ask for three times hot roast mutton—
Oh! the shocking little glutton.
Pop into your winter jacket,
With the lovely bear-skin lining.
While the sun is brightly shining,
Let us run and play together
And just love the autumn weather.
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THE BLACK MONKEY
Of keeping monkeys on her back.
A great big black one comes and swings
Right on her sash or pinny strings.
It is a horrid thing and wild
And makes her such a naughty child.
With almost an offended air
And says:—“Oh, Father, why can’t I?”
And stamps her foot and starts to cry—
I look at Mother in dismay ...
What little girl is this, to-day?
And makes a truly dreadful noise
Till Mother rises from her place
With quite a Sunday churchy face
And Babbles silently is led
Into the dark and her own bed.
Never a glimpse of candle light.
Oh, how the monkey simply flies!
Oh, how poor Babbles calls and cries,
Runs from the room with might and main,
“Father dear, I am good again.”
Snuggled quite close and kissing me,
Babbles and I, we think the same—
Why, that the monkey never came
Only a terrible dream maybe ...
What did she have for evening tea?
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THE PILLAR BOX
The pillar box is high;
It has the flattest sort of head
And not a nose or eye,
But just one open nigger mouth
That grins when I go by.
But hungry all the day;
Although it doesn’t make a sound,
Folks know it wants to say,
“Give me some letter sandwiches
To pass the time away.”
Or gummy letterette.”
I see the people on the street,
If it is fine or wet,
Give something to the greedy thing;
They never quite forget.
When Father goes away,
My Mother has such lots to send,
Fat letters every day,
And so I drop them in its mouth
When I go out to play.
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THE QUARREL
As angry and cross as could be
’Cause you said you wouldn’t beg pardon
For eating my radish at tea.
I hope it is makin’ you ill.
I hope you’ve a pain in your tummy,
And then she will give you a pill.”
Go and play with your silly old toys!
If you think you’re so grown up and clever,
I’ll run off and play with the Boys.”
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GROWN-UP TALK
In a very grown-up way;
We had got so tired with running
That we did not want to play.
He said, looking at the sky,
“Does God mix the things together
An’ just make it—like a pie?”
But it sounded very nice;
It was all that we could think of,
Besides a book said ‘sugar and spice.’
Cleverer than me, I mean ...
“I suppose God makes the black ones
When the saucepan isn’t clean.”
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THE FAMILY
Ail of them were born together;
They are quite an extra special
Set of babies—wax and leather.
Mummy made them each a bonnet;
Two were cherry, one was yellow
With a bow of ribbon on it.
For if ever we were talking,
They would giggle and be silly,
Saying, “Mamma, take us walking.”
Till one day we left them lying
In the garden—through a hail-storm,
And we heard the poor dears crying.
What if Mummy did forget you?”
So I said, “Well, you’re their Father.
Get them!” but I wouldn’t let you.
Transcriber’s Notes
Punctuation, hyphenation, and spelling inconsistences within poems were not changed, as they may be intentional.
Simple typographical errors were corrected.
Ellipses were retained as printed in the original book, whether mid-sentence, at the end of a line, or at the end of a sentence. The ellipsis in the title of the poem on page 53 is shown here with three dots, as that matches its appearance in the Table of Contents and is consistent with other ellipses in this book.